As I checked out with my dad’s birthday gift at Bergner’s yesterday, Emmarie on my front, the diaper bag slung on my back, a middle aged woman came up and said, “Aw, how old is she?” When I responded that she’d be two weeks today, the woman chimed in, “And you’re already out of the house!”
I smiled and said, “Yes” because, “Lady, you have no idea” seemed a bit strong for the situation.
In the last month, I’ve celebrated the second Easter service of Innovate Church, worked past my due date, delivered a baby with no drugs, made life changing decisions while wearing those ridiculous giant mesh underwear that the hospital gives you when you have a baby, lost our lead pastor family, and closed a church that has been an insane chunk of our time, money, prayers, and tears over the last two years.
The world I’ve known is gone.
But I feel oddly at peace with everything.
Because along with those changes, these changes also happened –
• Nate and I are praying like never before
• Nate and I appreciate each other like never before
• Nate and I love people like never before – Ok, fine, that one is just me. Nate always loves people.
• Nate and I feel more confirmed than ever that God will call us to plant a church someday, though we’re not sure when or where
• I’ve seen Nate step up in ways that I couldn’t have imagined even a few months ago
And here’s what hasn’t changed:
I asked Nate, “If you knew our church would fail, would you still be a part of it?”
He shook his head and said, “Our church didn’t fail. It closed. Innovate saw 27 people accept Jesus as their savior… 15 baptized… That’s no failure.”
There are going to be hard adjustments, but God already has the road set in front of us, even though we can’t see it.
So in the words of R.E.M., it’s the end of the world as we know it, and I feel fine.
Thank you to everyone who has reached out to us, loved us, and supported us. God has truly blessed us.